The inner Battle
Saint Paul, in this passage, opens his heart and allows us to glimpse his inner struggle — a struggle that is also ours. All of us, at some point, have felt divided: we want to do good, yet something within us pulls in another direction. It is as if two forces dwell in the soul — one that loves the light, and another that resists leaving the shadows. Paul doesn’t speak from theory but from experience. The strong and passionate apostle who preached the Gospel with fire admits that within him there is a silent battle. And by saying so, he sets us free; he shows us that we are not alone in our contradictions. “I end up doing the evil I do not want.” What brutal honesty — so human, so relevant! It’s not only about great sins, but also the small daily inconsistencies: judging when we should stay silent, delaying good out of laziness, closing our hearts out of fear. Sometimes we are surprised at how easily we fall again into what we promised never to repeat. Yet Paul does not remain trapped...